For the 15th time, Happy Many Returns!

YAY!
No, that's not right.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..
Okay that's better. I should be sad.
Who will be happy when their death date is nearing, DUH.

Okay, whatever it is, I'm still happy :)
Got some McDonalds and permission to go somewhere (KL WITH AINAAA and Dinie and Pajel)
Alhamdulillah...

Sigh, what's going happen to me, next?
From 28th October 2011 until today, I haven't grow an inch. This is so depressing. I'm currently 4/11 (148cm) and I don't wanna stay that way. Even a 9 year old kid is taller than me. What's worse is I'm fat. In fact, gaining every day. I gained 5 kg since last year and that is killing me. Despite the fact, I pathetically did nothing. Yep. Nothing at all. Sigh.. Oh, well I did gain something. Knowledge of course! Alhamdulillah.. and I really hope I'll get 8As. I will.

I really don't like writing this. Do I look I'm bragging or anything? You know, when our birthday comes, we will have really high hopes on everyone like when you are awake from sleep you're like.. "Today's my birthday! I'll get lots of birthday greetings and presents and love and I don't have to do house chores today and my sisters will treat me nicely"..and then you got disappointed. You know, people you expect to remember didn't and personally, it don't matter but there's some part of me just can't stop thinking 'Why doesn't she remember?'
There is also something special about this years' birthday. What is it again? Oh, no birthday cake, yes. First time :D

Since today is also the second day of Hari Raya Aidiladha, SALAM AIDILADHA!!!! Did you eat well yesterday (or today for those who just got their Korban meat today)?Delicious aren't they. Succulent, soft and yummm, mouth watering and tomorrow I'll be eating some MORE korban meat!! at school!
I also went to Segamat, Johor, my hometown.

okay, there are no cow pictures because I don't get to see them getting slaughtered.

My grandpa's home is great though.. Many fishes and cats!

There is something I just remembered. exactly 15 years ago, I was born, yes. Something happened some nights after that because I nearly died. I guess I have to appreciate life more after this because I literally survived death a few times.Oh god I sinned too much. SO SO much. I wonder what my angel think of me. OOOOKAY I'm straying from reality..

Well, enjoy your holiday guys! Do something productive! Goodbye, Assalamualaikum :)

P/S: Thanks Aina for calling me :'D

AIN

Stupid love songs

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!
Okay, I have been hearing sooooo many songs throughout my 15 years of life.
Some are poignant, some gives tranquility, some are profound and MOST are horribly stupid.

I actually heard these songs on radio. The point is, upon hearing the lyrics, I really despise them because those words.. they, actually fit for a god. Not to normal human beings. No matter how much you love someone, that love mustn't be more than the love to god and I'm sure it should be that way. What is the most a boy can do to you anyway? Give you life? Provide you oxygen?
I don't deny, love is vital but remember, even loving someone has its limits like a male cannot love a male and vice versa.

FINE, enough with the advice, I want to show you examples.
Look:

Ku Disini Mengalunkan Rindu Yang Resah
Aku Disini Memuja Bayangmu
setiap Detik Degup Nadiku Hanya Untukmu
Cinta Membara Jiwa GeloraKu

-Kau yang Terindah (Alyah)

Even if I love him so much, my heart is not pumping for him. :/

Bagaimana harus bersua
Ku rasa gementar tapi bahagia
Perlukah kita cari peluang pertama
Walaupun kita tak pernah berjumpa

-Cinta Muka Buku (Najwa Latif)

Sorry Najwa's faaaans!!! It's just, this song shows how stupid someone is. She just followed her heart and feelings (ikut rasa binasa, ikut hati mati) although the person is only a stranger on the internet. This is actually the source why teen girls run away from home.

I don’t care who you are, where you’re from, what you did As long as you love me…

-As long as you love me (Backstreet Boys)

This, sounds so desperate.

Okay, to be honest, there are loads more... I know, I'm not perfect; even I CAN'T think of all those beautiful words. I know. I just have to get this off my mind. Even my sister keep singing those, you know, which makes me detest her even more. -.-

AIN

Nurfadzlin Syafiqah Razali

Before I start anything,
I'm sorry not to call you by your real name,
NURFADZLIN SYAFIQAH RAZALI
aka
PAJEL KESAYANGANKU


Pajel, I never wrote a post about you and you ONLY;
so, this is my er... 'kind-of' effort to show how you shine and fine and... whatever <--crapping

*****

She’s a tall skinny girl, with eyes, framed by long lashes, were a bright hazel and seemed to brighten the world. A straight nose, full lips - she seemed the picture of perfection. Had she smiled, the world would sigh with contentment. Had she laughed, the world would laugh with her. And had she wept, the whole world would want to comfort her.

Pajel said that she has a great sense of music. Well, that can be trusted. I love her taste for music too. Whenever she has a song in her head, that song will echo in the house because everyone else is singing it. Oh, not only in the house, at school too; I’ll be the one singing of course. Often, Pajel sing Korean songs because they are OBVIOUSLY cleaner than English songs, more meaningful than Indonesian songs and uses good Hangeul than Malay songs that use bad Malay. You know, songs nowadays uses Malay like it is their father’s language -.- But of course, there’s always a good song in every language.

The sixth daughter of En Razali has attitude beyond words. To tell you she’s the nicest girl in the world, I would be probably lying but I can say that she is the nicest friend I’ve ever had. She wears hand socks even when she wears baju kurung. She covers her ‘aurah so perfectly that I feel so sinful when I meet her. She advised me about many things; studies, family, boys, etc… She always reminds me to control my sight, which I didn’t listen most of the time, of course, and many many many more.

The two hundred eightieth word is about Pajel’s family. Her mom is slightly shorter than her, fifty something but really looks younger. I don’t know much about Pajel’s father but Dinie said he looks fierce.  Down to her brothers, I literally know nothing about them except one of them is named Fariz or Faris? Oh and one of Pajel’s brothers is at New Zealand right now, which is Akmal Faiz, I daresay. This man or should I say boy, is VERY VERY HANDSOOOOOME. AAAAAAAAAAH. I’m jealous of her for having such a great brother. In the other hand, she’s really jealous of her brother. Fadzlin’s sisters are in UIA and Mesir. You know what? I can imagine their cuteness. Her one and only younger sister sat her UPSR last month. I’m very sure she’ll get 5A’s. With that, I need not say. Pajel’s family is one of the most successful families on earth.

Yes, I’m very bad at using words. I’m not Dinie nor JK Rowling nor other famous writers. Nonetheless, this essay I made proves that I think of Pajel, even at home. There is something I would like to say, despite your senility, goat-ish and grandma-ish way, you still are, my very best friend. I really felt that a year of us isn’t enough. I want to spend more time with you, Insya-Allah if we are schooling in the same school next year. Of course, together with Dinie, Aina and everyone else.

*****

Do I need to post her picture?

Even if I don't, I still want to.

CAN LAH EH, PAJEL

YAY! PAJEEEL

AIN

Cool Symbols

I just want to share this since sharing is caring...
Like what Pajel said, to show how I care for you, here they are. They're quite awesome, you know.

Group faces 1:

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Health cool shapes:

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Band Aid: ( ̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅ ̲̅]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅ )

Rabbits and kittens:

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Keeping my distance

The sun is filling up the room, and I can hear you dreaming. 

And I will 

And how long can we keep this up, up, up? 

Please don't stand so close to me; I'm having trouble breathing. 

I'm afraid of what you'll see right now. 

I give you everything I am, all my broken heartbeats, until I know you'll understand. 

And I will make sure to keep my 

 Say I love you when you're not listening. 

And how long can we keep this 

 up? 

And

You keep waiting

 to save what we have. 

So I'll make sure to keep my distance. 
Say I love you when you're not listening. 
And how long can we keep this up, up, up? 

Make sure to keep my distance. 

Say I love you when you're not listening. 

How long 'till we call this 

love?

I know you have her I just want you to know that I tend to love you for a few years more. Pray that my love to you will not fade; or you'll lose a very loyal girl. I'm stupid to love you.