Raya 2020 (saddest)

As all of you know, this year's Raya is not like any other in our lives. In fact, 2020 is totally cancelled. I don't wanna play anymore. Just skip me. How do I hack this year. From January the virus, to June racism. Things keep worsen exponentially.
All of us couldn't go anywhere this Raya, which defeats the purpose of Raya itself (ziarah menziarahi) and all we have is the ones close to us (or live nearby for my case). To a lot of others it's your family but to me, since I live 10 thousand km away from Malaysia, it's my friends. It is indeed the saddest Raya in our lives but I am glad at least I have a few people to share it with. Thank you for making my Raya bearable.

(I'm so in love with this picture you have no idea)

So we decided to have everyone cook one dish from start to finish and I'm in charge of Kuah Lodeh. Aimi cooks Rendang Ayam, Iqa Rendang Daging, Husni Kuah Kacang and Danial & Imran Nasi Impit and help everyone. We slept earliest at 3am  that night. Really living up to Suasana Hari Raya Song, 'Ketupat rendang sila nikmati kawan. Penat memasak malam ke pagi'

(I made this from scratch. I'm so proud of myself)

1st Syawal morning, I ironed my Baju Raya and went to Iqa's to settle for a good shawl style. We tried a lot of styles the day before and thank God I have one style that I find okay on me. Then like usual morning Eid prayers, and not as usual, live online khutbah by a government official.

(looking back at this I find it is not as okay as I thought I was lol)

So here are our Raya pictures:

(satin shawl girls)

Also made new friends! Apparently there are Malaysians living in the same building as me other than the ones I know. So, hi Syl and Hasif! #teamrayasilbermann #inijangkauanmasalampau

Coronavirus

It has been 5 days since I landed in Germany and number of COVID-19 cases have been skyrocketing, from 500+ cases per day, now 900+ cases per day. I am scared beyond words.
I know people say young people aren't gonna have it, why are you worrying so much well, because you don't worry enough, now there are 3.6k+ cases in Germany (as of today) compared to 1k+ just a few days ago.

I just can't believe it. I went to buy some groceries yesterday and NOBODY, I mean, NOBODY wears any kind of mask whatsoever and everyone doesn't give a SHIT about this pandemic. They are just chillin in the sun, having picnic in a crowded public area, just because the weather is nice. YOU IGNORANT FOOLS!! I don't know what to say. Honestly, my mind is blown at how nonchalant these people are.

Also a huge problem, masks and hand sanitizers are sold out EVERYWHERE, like you can't even buy it on amazon or anything. Doesn't that mean that there are buyers? People buy them but don't wear them? or,... did these shops never sell it at the first place?

No wonder europe is the epicenter of Coronavirus right now. I am not surprised AT ALL. Sometimes, I'm just FURIOUS at all these ignorant people taking things lightly. Yes, you shouldn't panic whatsoever but also you should take precautions! Like,... you know.. the virus is spreading but still hold Karneval? Gathering tens of thousands of people in one place?? Why wasn't it cancelled at the first place??? Are these people idiots?? And then you curse out the sick person for not staying at home. Yeah, that person is an asshole for not isolating themselves but you know what? People who take part in those huge gatherings are assholes too.

You are young, you won't be infected, but how about our parents? our grandparents? our pets? that live with us? Sighhh Idk man, I hate these europeans so much. Not all, please, if you're one of a few precaution taking european, THANK YOU!! SO MUCH!! I LOVE YOUU, Keep up the good work.

Please tell your friends and family to do the same. I'm just so worried for everyone, please be safe!! No matter where in the world you are. I love you all.

Here are some useful links to keep updated:
1. WHO provides daily updates surrounding COVID-19’s spread, infection rate, and general influence on our society
2. Worldometer daily updates on number of confirmed cases globally

Another Family-less Raya Celebration

This year's Raya post is only 5 blog posts away from last year's. By that information you can guess how neglected this blog is. (But I still love you baby don't worry). So yeah, Syawal came. That happened. I fasted for 17 to 18 hours a day, no big deal, but Raya, you know.. the most important celebration in a normal Malaysian life, instead of in Malaysia where the streets are filled with people wearing new clothes while trying to find another lemang stall, or where the radio echoes 'berlalulah sudah Ramadhan', I celebrated it at the Malaysian Consulate in Germany instead, where people might not even know what Eid is. Coincidentally, a big event was happening at the Messe, the building beside the consulate and a lot of people were there. When we were taking pictures outside, I saw a lot of eyes looking at us. They might've thought what are those weird clothes? Why are these men wearing skirt?

All in all, I didn't cry as much this year. Maybe because I know that I'm going home in a month anyway, and my Grandfather promised to prepare all the raya Aidilfitri dishes during Aidiladha :D WEHEEE. I crave catfish sambal. Haih. I don't really like lemang but I'm craving lemang too :( This year I celebrate it with new people too! My juniors <3 And met a few amazing new friends. I realise how much I love them and life is really boring without them. On Saturday a family Day was held. That was fun too, but last year's was more enjoyable but I still like this one better because of the people :)

#teamuchuxraver

Second day Raya we had Family Day, with Avengers theme. I'm actually quite proud of the AJK (who were mostly my seniors) I mean, it must've been tiring and they didn't even get paid. If that's not altruism I don't know what is.In the end my team won some stuff, but I didnt get to devour it cause my train was early huhu.. It's okay, I never wanted the presents to begin with, the memories were the most precious to me.

Life Update?

Hallo, Assalamualaikum, yes, I'm alive and well, thank you. And no, I haven't forgotten about this blog. The number of blog posts decrease exponentially year by year, lol. Okay, so.. I'm in 2nd Semester now and life seems okay.. I hope it continues to be okay. I'm trying not to waste too much time, lessen my daily dose of internet, try to exercise? more? Tht one I'm not sure I'm just too lazy. I am also lazy to cook, which means I don't dinner so often anymore. I mean,.. that's good right? I once ate just one cup of joghurt for the whole day. Bcs this school's cafeteria sucks. Well, I just generally hate all the food here. YES YES EXCEPT CHOCOLATES THTS WHY I'M STILL FAT.
Last February I went back to Malaysia and I was sooooooooooooooo happyyyyyyy. And I feel so rich like, I ate sushi with my sister and it costed 60 ringgit which is like 12 euros for 2 people and I'm like damn cheapppp. ASTAGHFIRULLAHALAZIM AINATUL MARDHIAH

"And do not turn your cheek [in contempt] toward people and do not walk through the earth exultantly. Indeed, Allah does not like everyone self-deluded and boastful". 31:18 

Okay, sorry, I just can't help feel that way haha. And I wonder how I would feel when I finish my studies because my salary would be lesser than what I get now, haha. Okay, to make it more interesting, I'll just leave some pictures here. 

 (my mother forced me to go hiking)

 (I sacrified my face just to put your picture here, Pajel)

 (I ate it all by myself)

 (Aiman's birthday party)

 (favourite dish, sambal sotong (I only like it if my mom made it ahha))

For Easter I went to Köln and Aachen to meet some friends and I never thought those few days were exactly what I needed; Friends' affection. I am so grateful to have these people in my life. I am sorry I didn't appreciate you enough.

  Fast forward to last Friday, I went to Plärrer, it's kind of like an upgraded version of fun fair 

Rather than an exciting trip, it felt more like a Korean class with Kyeoneun hahaha, because she taught me a lot of korean words, I really should go out with her more XD

I'm also sad to say that I don't really read now. I want to. I really do, but I just, don't have the time (more like I don't find the time) because I prefer watching videos on youtube than read. That is so uneducational of me, but that's the truth. I still regard it as my hobby, but it's an activity that I would love to do, rather than actually doing it. Like swimming. That being said, I went swimming last week and I fall in love with water all over again. I think I would feel the same if I start reading (english books) again. One of the reasons I stopped was because I thought, rather than english, it's better to read German. but when I read German, I don't understand and even if I do, I don't find the beauty in it because obviously I lack proficiency. I don't know until when I will stay stupid in German, we'll just have to see.. hmm.  

Last but never least, 

A MERRY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARLING DINIE AQILAH <3

Augsburg

Wie die Zeit vergeht. Time flies so fast that I am now finally entering university (other people are already in their 3rd Semester but it's okay haha). Well, it has been a month since I became an official student in Hochschule Augsburg (University of Applied Sciences Augsburg). People would've struggled with these 5 subjects that I take but crazy me added 2 more subjects to that burden which are chinese and korean. That was a stupid idea, I KNOW! But I just love these languages I can't give up on either of them. When I know my school offered these courses, I can't help but enroll. That is why I don't actually tell that to people bcs every person I tell it to, they have the 'you sure you're gonna make it?' face. Well, guess what, I don't know either. Haha. I will just try anyway.
Truthfully, I fell in love with Augsburg on the first day. Is it because it's pretty? Is it because it's serene? Or is it because I was warmly welcomed by a really nice girl? It's all of them! Most shops are just a walk away. And the best part is my apartment is just beside the HS. Score! It is such a small city, complete with everything the people need. I can rant on and on for 30 minutes about Augsburg but I'm not gonna do that now.
P/S: we have wifi on trams
Okay so other than that, I have been struggling with my german language. I thought I was good, but nooo i was 100 miles far from that. I did not. Understand. A word. I mean, I can understand a few words in the sentence but not the sentence as whole bcs my brain needs to work so fast and I am not yet capable of that. Despite that, I am still clinging onto my Malaysian friends haha. Actually not because I don't want to find German friends, but they are really tough cookies to crack. I don't really mind not having a lot of friends, I might just be nuisance to them, you know.  But of course I have a few that I can talk to though. And I think that's enough haha.
Lately I think I am infected by a disease called 'lazinossporosis'. On Thursday I was like 'I'm gonna make full use in these 2 days! I'm gonna learn Werkstofftechnik, watch educational youtube videos, learn back all the notes ... (2 minutes later).. clean my room, call my friends...
Actually me on weekends: Play sims and watch drama all day.
Me on Monday: (wailing) I SHOULDVE USED MY WEEKEND WISELY *cry cry cry*
Then repeat.
Yeah. That's the reality of my life.
So to close this post, here are some pictures

(Bcs i miss herrr)

(River flowing under the Cafeteria)

(At chuseok festival hehe)