Streicheleinheit

Soo... my best friend when I was in college has a boyfriend now. I am officially the only single girl in my batch hahaha (fml).  
I feel happy for her, and at the same time sad, because she didn't tell me anything. "Got boyfriend tell me ah" is what we always said. But she didn't say a single word nor a hint. In fact, I heard it from someone else 
I wish I was in Hamburg to see the very first buds of love in front of my eyes. I wish instead of Huda, I am the first ones to listen their blooming love story. I wish I was there to witness it all. I hate how far apart we've grown both distance and relationship-wise, and I can't even tell her that without getting her feeling bad (or confused. "Why are you suddenly telling me this?")
And I miss her. A lot.
I was even thinking of doing my masters in Hamburg but you know what they say, being a third wheel between best friends is worse than between a couple. Also I would be forth wheeling because her boyfriend is there; or maybe fifth? sixth? depending how many best friends she has? I don't know.
But I'm glad she found happiness, and I hope it continues forever. She deserves the world and so much more.
I truly miss you, Jie.


P/s: the title had no special meaning I just didn't know what to put heheh

Another Family-less Raya Celebration

This year's Raya post is only 5 blog posts away from last year's. By that information you can guess how neglected this blog is. (But I still love you baby don't worry). So yeah, Syawal came. That happened. I fasted for 17 to 18 hours a day, no big deal, but Raya, you know.. the most important celebration in a normal Malaysian life, instead of in Malaysia where the streets are filled with people wearing new clothes while trying to find another lemang stall, or where the radio echoes 'berlalulah sudah Ramadhan', I celebrated it at the Malaysian Consulate in Germany instead, where people might not even know what Eid is. Coincidentally, a big event was happening at the Messe, the building beside the consulate and a lot of people were there. When we were taking pictures outside, I saw a lot of eyes looking at us. They might've thought what are those weird clothes? Why are these men wearing skirt?

All in all, I didn't cry as much this year. Maybe because I know that I'm going home in a month anyway, and my Grandfather promised to prepare all the raya Aidilfitri dishes during Aidiladha :D WEHEEE. I crave catfish sambal. Haih. I don't really like lemang but I'm craving lemang too :( This year I celebrate it with new people too! My juniors <3 And met a few amazing new friends. I realise how much I love them and life is really boring without them. On Saturday a family Day was held. That was fun too, but last year's was more enjoyable but I still like this one better because of the people :)

#teamuchuxraver

Second day Raya we had Family Day, with Avengers theme. I'm actually quite proud of the AJK (who were mostly my seniors) I mean, it must've been tiring and they didn't even get paid. If that's not altruism I don't know what is.In the end my team won some stuff, but I didnt get to devour it cause my train was early huhu.. It's okay, I never wanted the presents to begin with, the memories were the most precious to me.

Throwback Austria

This is so old, I went to Austria in December 2017. After 6 months I suddenly want to reminisce those times. Those times when Danny was still a nice person. After that trip, even when we live in the same small city of 266 thousand population (Augsburg), I have never talked to him ever since. I met him in school a few times but we pretended not to know each other hahahaha. It's so funny how people thought we look like best friends? Lol. Anyways, this post is not about him; it's about how I fall in love with my lovely seniors all over again. And when it all ended, I was lonely again, alone in my 20 square feet room. I actually have not many words to type, as I've also forgot most things I did there. And I wanted to write the names of places that I went like Vienna Palace or whatever but truthfully, I don't even know any of those places' names because I only followed my seniors and took pictures and just live the moment while we could. So here are the pictures. Enjoy, I guess?

Life Update?

Hallo, Assalamualaikum, yes, I'm alive and well, thank you. And no, I haven't forgotten about this blog. The number of blog posts decrease exponentially year by year, lol. Okay, so.. I'm in 2nd Semester now and life seems okay.. I hope it continues to be okay. I'm trying not to waste too much time, lessen my daily dose of internet, try to exercise? more? Tht one I'm not sure I'm just too lazy. I am also lazy to cook, which means I don't dinner so often anymore. I mean,.. that's good right? I once ate just one cup of joghurt for the whole day. Bcs this school's cafeteria sucks. Well, I just generally hate all the food here. YES YES EXCEPT CHOCOLATES THTS WHY I'M STILL FAT.
Last February I went back to Malaysia and I was sooooooooooooooo happyyyyyyy. And I feel so rich like, I ate sushi with my sister and it costed 60 ringgit which is like 12 euros for 2 people and I'm like damn cheapppp. ASTAGHFIRULLAHALAZIM AINATUL MARDHIAH

"And do not turn your cheek [in contempt] toward people and do not walk through the earth exultantly. Indeed, Allah does not like everyone self-deluded and boastful". 31:18 

Okay, sorry, I just can't help feel that way haha. And I wonder how I would feel when I finish my studies because my salary would be lesser than what I get now, haha. Okay, to make it more interesting, I'll just leave some pictures here. 

 (my mother forced me to go hiking)

 (I sacrified my face just to put your picture here, Pajel)

 (I ate it all by myself)

 (Aiman's birthday party)

 (favourite dish, sambal sotong (I only like it if my mom made it ahha))

For Easter I went to Köln and Aachen to meet some friends and I never thought those few days were exactly what I needed; Friends' affection. I am so grateful to have these people in my life. I am sorry I didn't appreciate you enough.

  Fast forward to last Friday, I went to Plärrer, it's kind of like an upgraded version of fun fair 

Rather than an exciting trip, it felt more like a Korean class with Kyeoneun hahaha, because she taught me a lot of korean words, I really should go out with her more XD

I'm also sad to say that I don't really read now. I want to. I really do, but I just, don't have the time (more like I don't find the time) because I prefer watching videos on youtube than read. That is so uneducational of me, but that's the truth. I still regard it as my hobby, but it's an activity that I would love to do, rather than actually doing it. Like swimming. That being said, I went swimming last week and I fall in love with water all over again. I think I would feel the same if I start reading (english books) again. One of the reasons I stopped was because I thought, rather than english, it's better to read German. but when I read German, I don't understand and even if I do, I don't find the beauty in it because obviously I lack proficiency. I don't know until when I will stay stupid in German, we'll just have to see.. hmm.  

Last but never least, 

A MERRY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARLING DINIE AQILAH <3